It's been a minute, and I mean a
minute, since I've really picked up my Word and digested. Real talk. I've had some issues this year in trusting God. Mainly, How do I know God really has the best in store for me when X,Y, Z is or isn't happening in my life.
It's been a miserable state of mind, I must admit. I tried to act like I don't need God or I tried to live as though I don't want God... it's how I think sinners live. But, constantly, in the back of my mind, I'm scared to death of living a life outside of God. I don't see how people nonchalantly live without the leadership, the wisdom or the love of God. It scares me to death! It's a dark road to walk down.
I remember someone described hell as "an eternal separation from God." Eternally, and forever and ever separated from God. God who speaks and existence is made!
So, I've been trying to kill this flesh daily and it's tough stuff. Luke 9:23. I just moved into a new apartment that's a total upgrade from my last. I get free cable and free wi-fi. Major distractions from reading my Bible. I have so much free time on my hands because I don't have a job and I'm only taking one course. But, slowly, I'm picking up my Word more, praying more and fasting as God allows.
Pray for me! Pray for me! Pray for me!
Word of the moment: Psalm 18:22-45
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